Born Broken is the story of my struggle with alcoholism and my journey to recovery. It’s the story of growing up in a poor white neighborhood called Okieville with no way out and no hope for a better tomorrow. As you travel through this story with me, you will discover how alcohol took control of my life while I was still young and vulnerable. Yes, most of my struggles stem from chronic alcohol abuse, a disorder that this story will expose for its true nature. It will reveal insights I gained during my battle with this deadly disease. It tells how God grasped my trembling hands one desperate night and summoned me out of the abyss. Since that night, I have been struggling with alcoholism one day and one step at a time.
Born Broken starts during a time when many believed we only gained from life what we earned through will and determination. I view my world from a very different perspective than the one I grew up with. In the 1950’s and early 60’s, there was a belief that if you received a high school diploma, and if you worked hard enough, you could reach whatever goals you set your mind to. But I was to discover that the path is not that straight. Mine wasn’t anyway. Sometimes in life things happen for a reason, though that reason may not be apparent.
From the early moments of my birth, everything that happened in my life was inevitable. I needed to experience what I experienced the way that I did. Though I didn’t know it at the time, I was on a mission of self-discovery that needed to be accomplished at any cost. This path of self-discovery would have a profound impact on my life, altering its direction many times. This book focuses on lost directions. It is the chronicle of my winding path.
I pray that my story will impart a message of hope and courage to others still suffering from alcoholism. I hope that readers will experience a greater understanding of God’s Mercy and Grace, and a greater understanding of their own capabilities. It doesn’t matter where you came from in life—it’s where you are headed that’s important.
The world of alcoholism is an abyss. It waits patiently, and it devours everyone who dares to venture through its gates. Without a powerful and merciful intervention, its victims cannot escape. Once, maybe twice in a person's life, there appears an opportunity with the power to brush against the soul. It can alter what a person is destined to become. It can leave an impression on broken hearts and injured souls. These are the evidence, the footprints that God leaves behind. I am one of those blessed individuals who has emerged from the abyss through God's Grace to share His merciful and gracious message.